October 2002 / Halloween

This month is so loaded for me. Spiral dances used to be my main joy and burden. Now it's optional. My daughters do such a fine job, I am thinking I should just go to the cemetery with my dogs and burn a lot of incense. I love my cemetery, the Mountain View. It's actually on the hill sides overlooking the Bay. The old monuments give grace and class to the place, it's not just wall to wall bones. They have pyramids from the turn of the century, and so few crosses that it's amazing. Even if there is a cross, it's the Celtic one with intricate stone weavings.

I am a little frightened by my deep love of cemeteries. Why am I so attracted to that place? I sit on the stone seats, watch the trees. I speak to my favorite oaks, elders, hug them and kiss them. This is my true hollowe d ground. Empty most of the time, yet the new dead are coming in at a steady pace. The living bury them and bolt from the cemetery. They cannot stand to look in the face of death. Sometimes they drive off so fast I worry they will crash.

Then me and my two little black curly angels meander home. I feel refreshed like I had been to church. I think this is true, it is the only church I can attend with a full heart. The cemetery, where nobody is present, just the bones, and the trees, the lake and the birdsong.

Happy Halloween to you all.

Zsuzsanna

Posted by Z Budapest at November 6, 2002 04:23 AM | TrackBack